I made an interesting self-discovery today. My goal was to think in a positive way for the entire day. What better time than for the holidays and getting ahead of New Years resolutions? Initially, I thought this should be a breeze, as I am a reasonably well- adjusted person. Au contraire, it was more of a storm of negativity. I found that my mind tended to go to fears and worries rather than staying in the calm and optimistic lane. I lost count of the times I caught myself veering off into the “what ifs” of a situation. Then it hit me. I am really hooked on negative thoughts and only thought I practiced a positive outlook.
There is the diva in me that plays a bigger role than I realized. This diva is way too sensitive and reacts so quickly to the whiff of a slight, snub, or rejection. She then gets herself into a big, but silent snit that is out of proportion to the moment. In not allowing myself to go to the well of negativity for long drinks, I simply felt better. I wonder how long I can practice this approach to life. But of course, that is a negative thought. I think I will try this experiment for tomorrow.